As I decide my fate
A misread schedule
A fucked up date
Sitting here lonely
Like I have time to waste.
I'm not with the games
Or playing with the head
I made a mistake
And now wish I was dead.
Your silence pins me down
While tears come out of me.
I'm not a rapper but I'm good with words
I want to feel your touch, not make you hurt.
I want to kiss your lips and share dessert.
I want to hear your laugh, I want to hear you flirt.
I call upon thunder
I call upon hail
My ancestors laugh at me
As I, yet again, fail
At something so simple
I never can catch by the tail.
Something so sweet
My tooth chips a nail
Something so neat
My truth does not trail,
I curl my feet
I tuck my tail.
My responses are at the speed of snail.
I'm not usually forgetful
But my head's in the clouds above
Heart shaped balloons tied to my brain
I can't stop thinking of you
Or the thought of finding love
I wanted to feel your love from the very start
I won't tell you lies
Or break your mechanical heart.
Because your laugh and smile are my favorite parts
So I can't jest or joke
About the way I feel
I might brag and boast
So tell me how you feel
I'll definitely type and post
About how this is real.