Sith Creed

"Peace is a lie. There is only passion. Through passion, I gain strength. Through strength, I gain power. Through power, I gain victory. Through victory, my chains are broken."
-the Sith Creed

23 July 2011

Piece of Meat

Well I had an interesting night last night. I proved that I can be a formidable foe at the strip club. I danced. I flirted. I made it known that I am truly the definition of masculine. I don't know what those guys thought.

I wasn't doing the same things the other boys were doing. I wasn't letting the clients do whatever they wanted. It was nice to know that I had that control and that power. *evil laugh*

But on the other spectrum, I am glad I am not like some of the other guys. Further degrading themselves. Like there was on patron who was giving me a dollar and the music abruptly changed which in turn caused me to stop dancing and the guy said "Aww. You broke the illusion." Uh... I am real. I don't do illusions. *shrugs*

20 July 2011

Point of Impact

I am slowly becoming something I can't describe.
After class yesterday, I went to Bar at 316 to lock down a place for my photoshoot tomorrow. I met up with a guy who we have a mutual crush on each other. But low and behold, something happens where I have to depend on him, financially. Ugh. I am too independent so that is a big pet peeve of mine.
But that is not the reason why I have this blog. It is where it started. It is also the basis for dilemma that my story is built upon.

Feeling incapable, I left the bar and headed home. Throughout my trip, I grew more and more intoxicated after my last few drinks. My mind also started to wander further and further into darkness. I started to blame and point fingers and accuse. As my mind went darker and darker, I approached an intersection. A Land Rover pulled out onto West Blvd. My mind instantly cleared and envisioned a car coming over the hill.

Sure enough, a white Dodge Neon crested the hill. I braced for impact. I didn't want to get hurt by a random wheel, shards of glass or a whole vehicle. I yelled "Holy Shit!" as loud as I could. That was more of a reaction to the fact that I just witnessed an accident. The Land Rover tried to flee but with a wound on its back driver side leg it limped all over the street trying to dig a path through a telephone pole.

It sped off into the darkness leaving the Dodge Neon defenseless. Then he too sped off in the opposite direction. I felt relieved to have survived such an ordeal.

18 July 2011

The Turn of Events

Well I just had another wonderful day. Spent most of it in class. I had a very horrible morning to start off. But once I got going I was doing well. My life has gotten a lot more busy than what I was expecting. I might not be able to continue this blog as regularly as I wanted but then again I didn't do that well last month.
So I am off to the gym, at least I will try to maintain that...

17 July 2011

The Fear of Unknown

Hmm... So I am not really afraid of the unknown. I actually welcome it. It has been that one factor in my life that I can't control.
For instance, I actually won something today. I was able to win a pair of teamm8 swim trunks. They have a random drawing by posting a picture of the product and all you have to do is like or leave a comment. I was a bit skeptical about but it is legit.
So now I am waiting on a pair of teamm8 swim trunks so that I can sport them. I am extremely excited. It is also a great indication at how my luck is starting to turn around. I have to slowly ride this wave until I can get to a good point.

The Shield Of Set

Well now that I am starting to be more into photography, I have made another blog purely dedicated to my photography. It is called Shield of Set. I figure that would be a good way to represent the chaotic and unknown side of my photography. I really have no direction yet. I have a goal but sadly there is no path for me to walk down so that I may be fully successful.
Once that path opens and presents itself, the other half of my photography will appear.

15 July 2011

The Winds of Change

Well, sorry for not writing in a few days. This week I started class. So I have had to my homework on my spare time, which is slowly being eaten up. In actuality, I never really had any free time.

But either way, hello, I am writing to kind of get you up to speed on the adventures I have been embarking. Like I said, I have started class this week. It was very interesting. I think I will enjoy being a photographer. It seems like easy money. I get to use my own creativity. *shrugs* Nonetheless I am having fun. Sadly enough, I have been getting wasted while I shoot, which is a bad habit. But I have been getting some good shots.

11 July 2011

Next thing we are touching...

I had an awesome day today. The first thing was my 8am class. Conquered it. That class will be an easy A. I pretty much dominated that class with knowledge. Pfft... the fundamentals of photography. Humph! *laughs* But nonetheless I have homework that I haven't even started on; but then again I want to get a new memory card for my camera.
After that I did my usual by going to the gym. Just going there has made me get back into the groove that I have solidified for myself. I even got a compliment today. Now all I need to do is go for a run without a shirt... Hmmm.

10 July 2011

My Wrath is not to be taken lightly...

I recieved a stupid email and told the person not to respond to why I thouhgt it was stupid. And here is my response to their reaction.


“How dare you assume that I'm not intellectual?” -You ask this when it is obviously an interjection. Intellectualism is beyond just knowing what is going on in the news today and being able to comment on it. I think Obi-Wan said it best to JarJar “Just because you can speak does not mean you are intelligent…”

“First and foremost, you've never even met me so you can't just judge my intelligence based on the statement that I made previously.”  -No. I have not. But thankfully through the thirteen years I have been dating: going through ups, downs, “arounds”, broken hearts and broken promises and objectified glances; I have built a system that protects me from all of the fluff that randomly presents itself.

“That just tells me that you don't take the time to get to know people and their personalities and for that, I already feel sorry for you.”  -Ha! At what point in time did you take the time to get to know me? “What happenin my man,” is the reason why you received my question. Like I said before, it was a rhetorical, psychological ultimatum that trapped you into yet another disappointing piece of writing that you would have to voraciously read… You failed at handling constructive criticism. You failed at being tactful and sincere. And you mainly failed at skipping chapters. Every book starts with an introduction. It is the author’s purpose to attract and entice the reader to read more. Your introduction lacked imagination meaning I have probably heard that a dozen times from the undesirables I have designed these protective measures against. Ergo, you are undesirable to me… Big shocker, huh? Guess I don’t need you to feel sorry for me. I can damn well take care of myself. I feel sorry for the tears you are shedding right now because of this healthy dose of honesty you are receiving. *shrugs*

“A helpful tip for the future if you want to keep anyone in your life...don't judge a book by it's cover.”–A helpful tip for YOUR future is to not talk to someone who has more experience in life than you have pictures in your scrapbook. By the time you were born, I had survived nearly drowning to death, a freak air show accident (Rammstein, 1988, Google it), witnessed two Germanys turn into one, saved a friend’s life, defended my family’s honor, loved and lost and plant the seeds of my great ability of writing which you are sadly witnessing.

 “You might actually even learn something for a change.” –I did learn something, the fact that you have no idea what you have unleashed. I warned you before you decided to write what I just broke down and fed back to you.

“BTW I'm a voracious reader and consider myself very mundane in socio-political affairs.” –IGAF (I Gives A Fuck) I am a predatory writer with a literary psychological opposable thumb, which I just used to craft a light machine-gun rebuttal loaded with five hundred words of pure hate.

The Preparation

Today like yesterday has been in preparation for my first day of class tomorrow. It is the culmination of what I have wanted since getting out of the Marine Corps. I wanted to hang out with friends that I have made or just sit around and do nothing. Though, I can't. I am about to embark on another adventure that I cannot yet describe. I will be going to the Art Institute of Charlotte for photography. It has come to my attention that I should have followed one of my dreams. And starting tomorrow, I will be on that path of doing so.
There is no amount of luck that can be bestowed upon me but I realize I will have enough time to work on another of my hobbies, writing. Hmmm. What if you are witness to the fruition of my dreams as you read this?

09 July 2011

Lcpl Bishop

Today, is a day of silent reflection. Three years ago, I lost a friend while I was on a deployment. I met him within the three months of training and shedding my new boot scent. His name is Thomas Bishop. As one of the first Marines I could identify with, he showed me how to ignore any negative comments that would be directed my way. We had the same interests: dance, showing off, making people laugh, smart assed comments at the right time. And as a fellow Aquarian, we could see eye to eye on some of the more difficult issues.
2008 was a long year for me.  I was deployed to Iraq at the beginning of April. There were many from my unit who were not able to come along. Bishop was one of them. I wish he was able to join us on that deployment. He cracked my shell open and made me feel comfortable around everyone. I will miss him so much. He definitely shaped who I am to this day.

06 July 2011

The Tuesday that thought it was a Monday

Hello everyone,

Sorry for the delay. My life has taken on a sort of high speed chase into the unknown. From the 1st of July til now, I have been having some fun and some boredom.

The weekend of the 4th presented on of my friends from the Marine Corps. I was excited and surprised for his visit. Especially since he is the first of my Marine Corps friends to visit me.  I took him to all of my usual places of hanging out. I showed him around Charlotte as best I could. We even went to Carowinds, the local amusement park. By far one of the best weekends ever.

He didn't stay too long as he wanted to visit a friend in Raleigh. But the time spent was a great time.