Sith Creed

"Peace is a lie. There is only passion. Through passion, I gain strength. Through strength, I gain power. Through power, I gain victory. Through victory, my chains are broken."
-the Sith Creed

18 November 2011

The Day I Came Back To Reality

So I would like to apologize for not writing anything for almost three months. My adventures have been disguised as stress. Stress because I needed to turn in papers or photos or exams or study for tests. I have been very busy. School has taken a hold of me and choked me into a strange submission.

I also find myself awake (like now) thinking of things to come or things to transpire. I have started dating someone and have reached a point in the connection that makes me feel awkward when I am by myself hanging out with friends. Awkward because I feel left out. Like I don't belong in the circle of conversation. Almost like the people I am talking to are not as interesting as the one I want to be with... I don't want to call him my boyfriend or husband but it feels like that so far, which is strange for me. I never felt like this in a long time. I never met someone whom I could identify with so quickly. Hell, our paths crossed on Halloween during an interesting adventure (for the both of us). In the middle of the adventure, I turned to him and asked "Did we just fall for each other and didn't know it?" His reply "You are an idiot." Of course I took it as a yes...

The reason why I say that is because this week in particular, I have not spent the usual amount of money that I have. I have begun to save money so that I can spend time with him, even if our schedules are mismatched. I mean, what is wrong with me? I usually don't go around looking for someone to be in a relationship. But I think I found it. I am not sure. I don't even know what to think. I have been single for so long that I don't even know when someone likes me. Well, likes me for me...

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